I have this great fear of being tied down and kept with something or someone against my will. I'm not afraid of commitment I just want things on my terms or terms that I have settled or agreed to not ones forced upon me.
I have been stressing about my house sale, just getting to the point of putting it up on the market is a trauma inside for me. I want to get the show on the road and do paperwork so I have the terms all in black and white but the realtor is dragging his feet. He has told me that he will sell my place for free as long as I buy my next house thru him. I don't like that, its not that its not a great deal because it is, he is a friend and he feels he is doing me a favor but I just feel it will bind me to him and I don't like that. What if I don't want to buy a house for awhile or what if I want to move out of the metro area that he works in like I've been thinking I want to?? The guilt will eat me up for doing what I feel is best for me and not what I feel I should because I made a promise. I need to talk to him about this but I'm afraid he will abandon wanting to sell my house and in fact I really need him for this cuse I can't do it alone. This sucks.
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Oh hun - he will understand if he is a friend. I mean, a house is a huge deal and you don't want to do something you aren't sure of no matter what. There is just too much at stake.
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